Stefani Germanotta, a popular US singer better known as Lady Gaga, has revealed that she had a “total psychotic break” after a sexual assault at 19 left her pregnant. The 35-year-old singer spoke on her experience with rape for the umpteenth time when she featured on ‘The Me You Can’t See’, an AppleTV+ docuseries, co-created by Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey. Gaga spoke through tears as she recounted the moment an unnamed producer demanded she takes her clothes off before threatening to burn her music. "I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, 'Take your clothes off,'" she recalled. “I said, ‘No,’ and I left, and they told me they were going to burn all my music,” And they didn't stop. They didn't stop asking me, and then I just froze and I just ... I don't even remember,” she said.
“And I will not say his name. I understand this Me Too movement. I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not. I do not ever want to face that person again.”
Gaga said she will not name her alleged attacker. "I understand this #Metoo movement, I understand that some others feel really comfortable with this, and I do not, I do not ever want to face that person again.
"This system is so abusive, it's so dangerous."
According to the "Poker Face" hitmaker, she was diagnosed with PSTD years later, after going to the hospital for chronic pain. She went public with her diagnosis in 2016.
"First, I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. Then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after," she explained. "And I realized it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parents' house, because I was vomiting, and sick. Because I'd been being abused, I was locked away in a studio for months."
"The way that I feel when I feel pain is how I felt after I was raped," she said. "I've had so many MRIs and scans. They don't find nothing, but your body remembers."
Gaga said her healing process has seen a “slow rise” over the years. “And even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad. ... thinking about dying, wondering if I’m ever going to do it.”